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[Sitting outside, knees pulled to his chest and arms wrapped around them, is a Luke. He's shivering a little, mostly because he's a bit cold.] ...Again. Something's gone...

[Not too surprisingly, this got risque.]

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[fononfailure]

You can't have always felt that way.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

I can't remember when I didn't.

[fononfailure]

Do you at least know why you're like this?

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

There isn't much to feel for.

[fononfailure]

...

What about yourself? Someone you care for?

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

...

[fononfailure]

Father.. Mother.. Guy... You must feel something for somebody.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

[shakes his head slightly] ...How can anyone feel for people who were just fine with letting you be sold away?

[fononfailure]

...I.. I suppose no one in their right mind would. *leans forward slowly to wrap his arms around him.*

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

...

[fononfailure]

Maybe being here will help you to feel again.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

I'd rather not.

[fononfailure]

But why...?

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

It's easier not to.

[fononfailure]

Just because it's easy doesn't mean it's either right or the best thing to do.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

You wouldn't want to feel, either.

[fononfailure]

..I think I'd always want to feel.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

Even when you're just a possession...?

[fononfailure]

Even then. That way you have something that's yours and only yours.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

[shakes his head] Feeling things... wanting things... it only gets everyone else hurt.

[fononfailure]

That was there. If doesn't have to be the same here.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

Master is here.

[fononfailure]

...that doesn't matter. You're your own person, Luke.

[paymentforbirth.livejournal.com]

[shakes his head]

[fononfailure]

... *slowly sits down beside him, leaning against him.*