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[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

[...well, look who it is. outside, in the snow, stands an Asch who looks a looooot like Metalhead. he's just staring up at the sky, hand held out to catch the tiny snowflakes, a serene look on his face for once. ask him where he's been, I know you're just dying to find out. who knows, maybe he'll answer.]

((idk. i felt like bringing him back.))

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[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

All I've ever felt was anger.

[fononfailure]

Right now you sound more sad than anything.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

They're both negative feelings. That's all I've ever felt.

[fononfailure]

Well.. didn't you feel something besides those when you and Asch shared the same body?

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

No. I didn't wish to, back then.

[fononfailure]

...I can think of a couple times you didn't seem angry or sad.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

...It certainly wasn't happiness, though.

[fononfailure]

...

Guess not. [ SIGH. ] Let's try this from a different angle. Is there anything else you want in life?

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

To be forgiven.

[fononfailure]

..I've already forgiven you, so that's a start.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

How could you forgive me so easily?

[fononfailure]

I don't have any right to bear a grudge after all I've done.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

...I see.

[fononfailure]

Most of what happened was my own fault anyways.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

...

[fononfailure]

And some I don't regret at all.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

Like what?

[fononfailure]

...do I really need to say it?

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

...I suppose not.

[fononfailure]

[ She goes quiet, hugging Aidan close. ]

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

...But there's at least one other who's forgiveness I want. And I know I can never have.

[fononfailure]

...that gives you something to live for. And maybe with each step you make towards earning that forgiveness, you'll find out what it means to be happy.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

He won't ever forgive me, though. He hates me.

[fononfailure]

You used to hate too, right? I think that's changed and so can his feelings.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

He would probably rather see me dead, than forgive me. I think I may have pushed him to his last nerve after...

((derrrrp i should go to bed. niiight~))