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[ absently writing something down, noting something from a book. he's also absently chewing on his left hand. his knuckles are bleeding, btw ]

*runs a finger along the back of his bandaged hand.* That's what I get for hurting him.

[ "You still don't deserve death." ]

It's fine. While I deserve worse than that, I don't want to live without him.

[ looks at her, annoyed ]

...what?

[ punches him ]

..! *reels, slowly bringing a hand up.*

[ "What in the world makes you think you're not important enough to live on your own?" ]

I'm nothing but a worthless replica who sleeps around. If my own Asch doesn't want me, why would anyone else?

[ punches him again, especially since hearing "worthless" and "replica" right next to each other ]

*cries out and flinches, but doesn't try to block the hit.*

[ "Did you forget who you're talking to?" ]

N..no. It's not as if I was talking about you...

[ "Replicas are never worthless. Even the defects. They can't continue a line, but as a person, they are never worthless." ]

...what worth can a person who does nothing but hurt others have? This place would be better off without me.

[ "Bullshit." ]

It's true. I'm a filthy monster.

[ "You gave me hope. You help the children around here, talk with friends, and are not a monster." ]

...

I've raped an Asch, attacked people, ruined relationships, and I need to live off others. That sounds like a monster.

[ makes a silent snarling motion. "We all attack and need to live off others." ]

Not everyone. There are those here who don't. Asch doesn't.

[ "No. We can't do everything by ourselves. What we can't do, we live off what others can." ]

...but they can do so without hurting those they use. That's the difference.

[ "Then you haven't paid attention." ]

Why do you say that?