abyssdressing | (no subject)

Not enough. I barely know anything about the world... just pieces. I'm still a burden, like this.

But, I guess, if there's one thing I really wanted to know the answer to... it's something that even Asch wouldn't be able to tell me. We'd have to ask Fath-... we'd have to ask Duke Fabre. He's the only one with that answer...

Learning about Auldrant is simple business with so many who can teach you here. If you don't wish to be a burden, you should start learning things that will be of help to your original.

...what is this one thing you desire to know so badly?

Yeah... I... I know.

How he could send his son there - even if I'm not his real son, and neither of us knew then - knowing that he was sending me to my death. He... he knew that part of the Score. And if I had never been made, he would've sent Asch just the same. I want to know how he'd be alright with that. And U-... and His Majesty, as well...

You are correct in that is something only he can provide an answer to. I myself never asked them about it. I doubt I would want to know what their response would be to sending a member of their own family, a child no less, to be killed.

All to keep some... stupid prophecy. All of them... really, if it's not me being used, it would've been him. Is that what it means? What was it that they'd said... Being... "Lorelei's scion"? It just makes us as much of a tool for people to wield as fonons are? [...obviously, he's been doing a lot of thinking while he was looking for Mieu] Who the hell would ever agree to that? Really...

That is why their dependency on the Score had to change. With all Yulia spoke of in the Score, everything could not have been clear. Being Lorelei's scion could have more than one meaning to it. [ Scoffs at him, anger beginning to show in his voice. ] They agreed, obviously. I must wonder as to whether or not Mother knew about what they had planned. Surely her health would have suffered a great deal if she was aware.

[turns to look at him; for the first time, there's actually really something in his eyes] It wasn't their position to agree to. It's Asch's power - and I guess mine, too. Asch is Lorelei's scion, right?! And as his replica, I'd have to be, too. So isn't it our place to decide if we wanted to be their tools?! Isn't it our place to decide if we wanted to be used like that? But, what? Because we're too young, no one even thought we should have a say? Because the Score said "this is what has to be done," it's fine? I...

I don't even exist in it. Doesn't that say something? Doesn't that tell anyone that it's not the only way...?

It was never anyone's place to choose. The Score was absolute in their minds. And why not? They would not want to change with their lives being so comfortable and the promise of "great prosperity" to come just around the corner by following the Score. There may be a few who wish to find another way, but those are too far and few between to make any real progress.

Prosperity...

You know, speaking of that...

What of it? [ This is the most serious discussion Asch has ever had with a replica. The entire thing is throwing him off. ]

I don't know anything that the Score really says... I've never really heard it, except the bits and pieces they read before sending me off to Akzeriuth, and what I overheard in Yulia City, that it had said that Akzeriuth would fall and that "Lorelei's scion" would die there. And I keep thinking about it, about what they said and what happened, and it just doesn't make sense.

What the hell kind of prosperity could ever come from people dying?!

It all depends on how you take the "prosperity" they so highly touted. Perhaps ridding Auldrant of people could be taken as prosperity for the planet itself.

Then...

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...Asch... is it...

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Your Auldrant... it doesn't follow the Score anymore?

....no, it doesn't. The Order is undergoing a reform as things are sorted out.

Then, you'd be able to tell me...

It's not something we were supposed to stick to, is it...

At best, the Score should have been used as a guide or something to be consulted in times of dire need, as Yulia once did. People should not leave their lives to fate without taking any initiative themselves.

Mm... [puts a hands to his heart] I don't know much about any of that stuff... the few stories I remember about her, it sounded like Yulia was really nice. Not the kind of person who'd want the whole world to die... she wouldn't've left that to people if she wanted us to follow it completely...

... [and now something else hit him] ...

Yulia Jue was a person who must have loved all, to put forth so much effort into saving Auldrant. ...the Score could never have been absolute if these events were not seen by her.

[nods slightly, biting his lip]

Um... Hey, Asch...?

[ Curbs his desire to snap at him for using his name. ] Hm? What is it, replica?

...

Have you ever... have you ever heard someone speaking into your head? A voice you've never heard before in anyone else...

...a voice that comes from nowhere, correct?

[nods] It always gives me a headache...

Yes I have. It's all part being Lorelei's scion, though I'm not certain about why you suffer from it.

... ...what is that voice...?