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[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

[...well, look who it is. outside, in the snow, stands an Asch who looks a looooot like Metalhead. he's just staring up at the sky, hand held out to catch the tiny snowflakes, a serene look on his face for once. ask him where he's been, I know you're just dying to find out. who knows, maybe he'll answer.]

((idk. i felt like bringing him back.))

Comments

[fononfailure]

You're.. different from mine. I don't know. Maybe it has to do with you not being from Auldrant.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

Asch isn't from Auldrant.

[fononfailure]

Well, he's interesting too, just not in the same way. He's more... like me and the other Lukes. I think.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

You're not making any sense.

[fononfailure]

You're asking me to explain something I don't even understand myself!

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

Then you shouldn't have brought it up.

[fononfailure]

You wanted to know why I'm trying to help you, so I told you!

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

.... [Asch sits down on the snowy ground, now drawing random patterns in it]

[fononfailure]

Oh for crying out loud... [ With a sigh she comes over and flops down beside him, setting Aidan down in her lap. ]

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

You're wasting your time with me, you know.

[fononfailure]

If I can do something to help my Asch be happy, then there's got to be something I can do for you.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

[he gives her a dry laugh]

[fononfailure]

But if you're determined to make yourself miserable, nobody- not even Metalhead- will be able to make you happy.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

Maybe I'm not supposed to be happy.

[fononfailure]

Yet maybe you are. You'll never know until you try.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

I don't even know what it's like to be happy. How do I know if I'm capable of being happy?

[fononfailure]

...

You don't know what it feels like when you're happy?

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

No. So can I be happy... when I don't even know how it feels like?

[fononfailure]

[ Why do you ask such difficult questions, Asch? She scrunches up her face in thought, watching the kidlet paw at the snow. ] ...yes, you can. It's like any other emotion; when you find it, you'll know.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

All I've ever felt was anger.

[fononfailure]

Right now you sound more sad than anything.

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

They're both negative feelings. That's all I've ever felt.

[fononfailure]

Well.. didn't you feel something besides those when you and Asch shared the same body?

[ur-worstdream.livejournal.com]

No. I didn't wish to, back then.

[fononfailure]

...I can think of a couple times you didn't seem angry or sad.