abyssdressing | (no subject)

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Why should you be sorry for what's true? 'm just a worthless whore.

I don't know about that. He's always had a hard time trusting and I betrayed that trust over and over. That's probably what hurts. If I blamed him, I wouldn't have stayed and let him call me those things and hit me.

--He hit you?

Just a few times with a book.

[looks torn between being angry with Asch and very distraught] Th... I mean I knew he always had a short temper, but... [runs his hand through Luke's hair again, idly]

...that's what I get for not listening to him and trying to get near. *unconciously leans toward his hand, craving even the smallest affection.* The actual hits didn't hurt as much as the fact he acted like I wasn't even worth being treated like a person.

[ Baaaw. D: Okay~ Hope you feel better. :< ]

... [shifts around, drawing him into a hug, remaining otherwise silent]

*snuggles up against him and clings as tightly as his wounds will allow.*

[shifts to sit more comfortably, letting him cling as he likes]

...at least you aren't telling me how much I screwed up.

I figure you're well aware.

Hasn't stopped everyone else from repeating it. The more I hear it, the more I think it'd be better for me to just leave.

[ You have Time Warner too? :/ ]

... Maybe I subconsciously knew that, and stayed quiet because I don't want you to.

....you're probably the only one.

[ Yeah, I wish there was a better internet provider around here. XP ]

[squeezes his shoulders a little] Friends, remember?

*hugs him tighter.* I'm not sure what I should consider everyone else, then.

[ It was Version back in Maryland. DX ]

[enjoying this, in a sort of oddly detached way] ...I'm not sure, either.

*happens to be very content to just cling to him. not having someone to snuggle was surprisingly painful.* They all either got mad at me for screwing up or had to go and remind me how worthless I am.

[Luke has always been a cuddlebug. A part of him is a little awkward, given who he's cuddled with, but he's doing a very good job of ignoring that part.] Well then their opinions don't much matter. [ruffles his hair]

*hey, if you can't be comfortable cuddling yourself, how can you be comfortable cuddling someone else? no that it makes even the slightest sense.* I guess so, but even if their opinions don't matter, Asch's does. *even though Luke doesn't care for having his hair fluffed, he tilts his head towards it.*

[ LIES. You've never had one. And because even domestic shipping is a bitch. ;; Whatcha getting? :o ]

[it's more the tension between 'himself' and Ana that he's awkward about.] ...yeah. With any luck, he'll cool down. [encouraged, he continues to ruffle the hair]

I hope so. I don't want to go through another episode of being away from him. *lets out a quiet purr-like noise, closing his eyes.*

[ AAAAAH. That explains it! |Db .....damn copyright-infringing make-up. XD JPQUEEN. GO FOR THE POOOOOOORN. <<; That's why I usually wait until I can buy a bunch of stuff at once. I can't stand to spend so much on shipping for one item. D8 ]

...Maybe he'll be willing to make an exception. If on that principle alone.

... *gives a pathetic laugh.* I don't know if he was just venting, but he basically said he didn't care about that kind of thing.

[ YUS. That's the way to go! :D WOOOO. I wish dad could do that. But seeing as how we're both unemployed, not happening. XDD ]