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... I mean with Asch. No one else. If I can get him to open up to me again..

[brushes at his hair, awkwardly] ... He's just hurt, you know. He's angry, but it's because he's hurt. You know how he doesn't like to express things. Just... give it a little time.

...he expressed it very well, I think. Calling me dreck, replica, and worthless gave me a slight hint as to how he felt. I still don't know if he just wants Aidan..

... He wouldn't give me a straight answer, but I can tell you he reacted whem I called him on how your... previous actions must've hurt him.

...

Why should you be sorry for what's true? 'm just a worthless whore.

I don't know about that. He's always had a hard time trusting and I betrayed that trust over and over. That's probably what hurts. If I blamed him, I wouldn't have stayed and let him call me those things and hit me.

--He hit you?

Just a few times with a book.

[looks torn between being angry with Asch and very distraught] Th... I mean I knew he always had a short temper, but... [runs his hand through Luke's hair again, idly]

...that's what I get for not listening to him and trying to get near. *unconciously leans toward his hand, craving even the smallest affection.* The actual hits didn't hurt as much as the fact he acted like I wasn't even worth being treated like a person.

[ Baaaw. D: Okay~ Hope you feel better. :< ]

... [shifts around, drawing him into a hug, remaining otherwise silent]

*snuggles up against him and clings as tightly as his wounds will allow.*

[shifts to sit more comfortably, letting him cling as he likes]

...at least you aren't telling me how much I screwed up.

I figure you're well aware.

Hasn't stopped everyone else from repeating it. The more I hear it, the more I think it'd be better for me to just leave.

[ You have Time Warner too? :/ ]

... Maybe I subconsciously knew that, and stayed quiet because I don't want you to.

....you're probably the only one.

[ Yeah, I wish there was a better internet provider around here. XP ]

[squeezes his shoulders a little] Friends, remember?

*hugs him tighter.* I'm not sure what I should consider everyone else, then.

[ It was Version back in Maryland. DX ]

[enjoying this, in a sort of oddly detached way] ...I'm not sure, either.

*happens to be very content to just cling to him. not having someone to snuggle was surprisingly painful.* They all either got mad at me for screwing up or had to go and remind me how worthless I am.

[Luke has always been a cuddlebug. A part of him is a little awkward, given who he's cuddled with, but he's doing a very good job of ignoring that part.] Well then their opinions don't much matter. [ruffles his hair]

*hey, if you can't be comfortable cuddling yourself, how can you be comfortable cuddling someone else? no that it makes even the slightest sense.* I guess so, but even if their opinions don't matter, Asch's does. *even though Luke doesn't care for having his hair fluffed, he tilts his head towards it.*

[ LIES. You've never had one. And because even domestic shipping is a bitch. ;; Whatcha getting? :o ]