abyssdressing | (no subject)

[blinkblinkblinku] H-huh? [still blinking a bit, before he blushes and scrambles back a few steps] Ah, s-sorry, I didn't realize I...

[ Gives a sigh of relief and pushes his hair up, face flushed. ] Of course not. None of you ever do.

[>(] Well so sorry I've never seen anything quite like that.

Now you have. You should get out more if you have yet to see one of us with wings.

...

...That's not always the easiest thing. It's hard going out when-...

...do you expect the pain to go away on its own?

I'm not expecting it to go away at all. But... seeing them, I... I can't help but feel guilty. They've all probably worried so much...

So make plans to change that once you return to your own world. Show those that are here that you care.

... [sighs] How do you explain to the people who mean the world to you that you've been alive for ten years and have been avoiding seeing them?

Perhaps in the same way you forced me to.

... [shakes his head, laughing a very small bit] I don't think it's as easy as that. At least for Mother and Father... at least, by the time I did that, they'd known you were alive. I... Asch and I both, we've avoided everyone since we di-... ...we've made everyone think we're dead. That we won't be coming back...

Before that, though, I could have gone to see them. I did not and I have regretted it ever since... Then you both are cruel individuals, and your Asch one who does not keep promises he made. A disgrace to our name.

It's not like I kept my promise, either. I just...

I don't know how we would've ever explained it. Coming back from the dead...

What promise did you make?

Some things don't need an explanation. The act itself is enough.

...That I would come back. Even though I was dying... even though they all knew I was dying, that I was going to disappear...

...so you both wasted your chance to keep those promises. How typical of you.

And what the hell would you do?! How... how would you even begin trying to explain why you're a kid again?!

I would have gone back! Did you not hear me the first time? Explanations are not always necessary to those who understand.

... [shakes his head, turning away and hugging his staff to himself] We're... we're not the same people that we were... and now, now even if we tried to go back... it's too dangerous. It's too dangerous for all of them. I don't want them to get pulled into this again.

[ Glares at his back for a moment, wings puffed up out of annoyance. ] ...I see time has done little to give you wisdom. You will always be nothing more than an ignorant replica.

[shakes his head] No. It's too dangerous this time. I'm not going to put their lives at risk for something that Asch and I are supposed to do. It's not fair to them, to pull them into something that we agreed to do. Besides, in the end... in the end, we might be ripped apart again.

Edited 2009-03-24 21:30 (UTC)

Very well. Say you are excluding them for their own safety. Taking it onto your shoulders like some high and mighty being. Perhaps like a certain Maestro or Commandant? Do you think they don't wish to have a say in it? And what if you fail? Where will that leave them?

We won't fail. But if we're going to do this, no one can know we're alive. Do you think it's because we think they can't help fight it?! Do you think that we're really that stupid?! You don't have any idea what we're working against!

Hmph. ...it's your world, your friends, and your decision. I hope you can live with it.

If it means they're safe from those bastards, I can live with anything.