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[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...Luke, I need to give you something.

...Asch, I can give it to you too, if you want.

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[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

Yes I am... I hurt myself, and those times I don't even know what's happening...

[fononfailure]

That's normal when you've been through something traumatic, I think..

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

But I just watch myself do it, it's like it isn't even me.

[fononfailure]

I know. I've been through that too.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

But it happens all the time...

[fononfailure]

I'm sure it'll happen less if you work at it.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

It doesn't help...

[fononfailure]

It will. We'll help you so you can get on with your life.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...I still don't think you can. I'm too broken...

[fononfailure]

...maybe I can't, but if anyone can, it would be Asch. He was able to help 'fix' me in so many ways. I'm sure he'll be able to do the same for you.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...I guess he can try... Both of you can. I just don't know if it will help.

[fononfailure]

I think it will. You won't be like this forever.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...You really think so?

[fononfailure]

*hugs him tighter.* I really do. Because I understand how you feel, and I know you can overcome it.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...You understand how I feel? How?

[fononfailure]

I used to think a lot like you after Asch brought me back.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

But you aren't bad.

[fononfailure]

Hmm. Depends on what you mean by bad.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

You aren't a bad girl. I'm a bad boy, I misbehave.

[fononfailure]

You're also a child. That's what children do. And I think some would count trying to off yourself as bad.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...You tried to kill yourself...?

[fononfailure]

For almost the first three months of being like this. ....and then again recently.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...Did you get in trouble?

[fononfailure]

No. Asch just prevented me from doing so, then held and calmed me until the urge passed.

[unspokengrief.livejournal.com]

...I just got in trouble.