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[blackparts.livejournal.com]

[ it's always great to wake up and find yourself randomly on the couch. randomly without clothes. and randomly a male again. it was the oddest feeling in the world, really, and once the disappointment of his once bountiful chest being gone passes him by...

he runs outside, throws his arms up in triumph, and has no real qualms with screaming loud enough to wake the dead. all while still very naked. ]

MY DICK IS BACK! PRAISE JESUS!

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[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

Because I just don't want to.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

Real mature of you.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

[Just looks at him straight in the eyes] It's okay if you insult me or tell me all those things. I already knew all of them.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

Live, Luke.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

[Just leans up and gives him a small kiss] For all that's worth, I'm sorry.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

Live, Luke... Please. You don't ever have to see me again, just... Don't do this.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

It's the opposite. I wish I could be with you forever and be happy...I know I can't ever bring a smile to your face.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

You don't have to be in love to be happy.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

I'm always going to love you, stupid.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

I loved you, Luke.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

[Smiles] It went away that fast, huh?

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

It's still there... Somewhere. I-I just... I thought you would... The darker side of you was enough to kill my respect of you.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

I understand. You don't have to explain anything...to me. [Yeah, his heart completely broke. He didn't think he could be replaced that easily, but obviously he was wrong.]

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

We were supposed to have a child together, you know.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

Huh?

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

Don't ask me how I know. Maybe this place made me like this again because it knew that the chance was gone, but...

Yeah.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

...

I don't know what to say about that, except that I'm scared.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

About what?

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

Guy, I never really told you why I hate children. And you never asked...but there is a reason.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

Why?

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

Truth is, No. I don't really hate kids. It's just easier to get over things by saying I do.

I'm scared that I'd be an awful parent and that the poor kid would grow up as fucked up and miserable as I did.

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

...Yeah, thanks.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

What...?

[blackparts.livejournal.com]

Say that to the person who cared for you and was responsible for raising you for a good part of your life.

[tothedeathofus.livejournal.com]

Nah...this isn't your fault. You know, there's only so much you can do for someone else's happiness.

And if I have to blame anyone, you'll probably be content that it's my own father.